For almost over a fortnight I wanted to write this piece. Got busy with my sketches and other trivial things to spend time penning my feelings. So, here I’m finally punching the words, making their way out on the blank word doc, which have been on my mind for quite sometime.

It was Nov 6th, the second day of Diwali celebrations when I was feeling a lil frustrated for not getting a chance to move out of the house even for a simple leisurely walk for what felt like more than eight long months. I was feeling perturbed. I wanted to know what progress/regress I have made so far as my allergy was concerned. For the very simple reason that, if I don’t take a chance, I would never know. So, after much dillydallying and being shit scared out of my wits I popped an antihistamine and finally marched out for my ultra privileged walk. It was past 7 pm and as the temperature was much cooler and bearable for my skin condition, I thought it would not be much of a problem. But, I was in for a surprise.

Things appeared to be cool till I reached my destination, a nearby temple. But on my return trip the situation just spiraled out of control. Yep, you guessed it right. I was down with yet another allergy attack and this time I was chocking. Thanks to the heavy dose of Diwali goodies that I was on. It was another couple of hours when the symptoms subsided and I was normal again. I surely did have a harrowing time. Yet another umpteenth disgusting disappointment. I’m kinda used to it by now. Sigh!!! :-(

But, it felt good though – the 10 mins of unsolicited freedom that my brief walk showered on me. Felt like a blessing to feel the cool air on my skin again and to experience the fleeting moments of freedom and independence I once had. Though it lasted only for a few precious moments. More importantly, it made me more than happy to realize all over again, that I have not lost my good ol charms. And that they are still very much intact, as I made more than few heads turn. God!!! that felt so good.  I met a few acquaintances who were more than surprised to see me looking all vibrant and glowing, wary of their gawking expressions, I exchanged the usual pleasantries and dashed off. If that makes you wonder what clothes I wore. Well, nothing jazzy ya, just my usual neatly done trousers and sexy looking top to go with it. ;)

Coming back to my reality, in-spite of me not wanting to, the severity of the allergy attack makes me dwell on my predicament – what’s the point of having being blessed with so much talent, creativity, extrovert instincts, sweetness and invincible charms? That’s a sheer waste, when sentenced to life imprisonment of urticaria, charged under section ‘Karma’ of God’s Penal Code. Whoever said, past karma is a bitch was so damn right!!